“It’s been seven hours and fifteen days…”
Actually, It’s been a month and a few days since my last post. Did anyone get my Sinead O’Conner reference? 🙂
Anyway, in just a month so much can happen. It will have to all come out slowly in future posts. For now, I can say that even though I have both given up on the “quest to be nice” and admitted defeat to it, and even though my husband and I have given serious thought and consideration to divorce…
My gumption is not gone.
My fight has not faltered.
I have, however, realized that I can not do this alone… no one can. And I am realizing that I am not alone when it comes to these marriage issues, many others have been through it. I am not alone. I have always had a wonderful God on my side, and I have not been doing anything about it.
I had a short chat with my Pastor’s wife, and in that short tiny little passing conversation, she managed to re-inspire me and remind me about God’s love. Later that day, I received an email from her, with a link to one of my favorite Christian Author/Speaker Lysa TerKeurst. I am putting the link here http://lysaterkeurst.com/category/marriage/ because I think she is wonderful and can help many.
Before I pay a bunch of money to a lawyer so I can divorce the man I bicker with constantly…. I am going to be counseled by my God on how I can forget about pleasing my husband & children and FOCUS on being the kind of wife & mother that GOD wants me to be. I am going to focus on putting away those daily little annoyances and I am going to practice being faithful to a true, pure, and wonderful Love; God’s love.
If we are still at odds after God gets involved… then we will know that we were not meant to be together.
I will check in again (sooner than last time).